Two weeks.

Today is the day I have been working out for two weeks! I have had some barriers the last week since I pulled a muscle, so I have been resting a lot this past week. But I am happy to say I am down 5 pounds. It doesn't seem like much, but its a start! 203 to 198. Call me crazy, but it feels like a big accomplishment because I am no longer in the 200's, even if it was only 3 pounds. :)

Back in November, I found out I had high cholesterol. My goal is to go back to the doctor, within a month and find out that my numbers are "normal" or at least closer to normal than they were before. I have been watching what I am eating, as far as how much of something I am eating. It is all about portion control. 

My goal is to be 150 pounds. I know some days will be more difficult than others, but I will get through it! I am not even necessarily looking for the number to be right, I just want to feel good about myself and the way I look. I want to be able to go to the beach and not be self conscious of how I look in a bikini. 

Thank you everyone for your support you have given me! It helps give me that extra drive to keep going! 

203.

June 9th ,2013 I looked in the mirror one last time before I headed to bed. I have never felt so horrible about myself. Then and there I decided for real the next day was going to be the last day I just sit there and let myself not care about how I look. 

June 10th, 2013 I wake up get my stuff on to go to the gym and go, before I go I took a before picture and weighed myself before I did anything that morning. I have topped my highest weight I have ever been at 203.4 pounds. I always told myself I would never weigh over 200 pounds, yet here I am today 203 pounds. 

I have started to change things in my life, for me to make myself happy. I have learned that I wasn't happy with myself. So this is me trying to make myself happy. 

I have worked out 3 of the 4 days since June 10th. I am planning on continuing on this journey. It takes 21 days to make something habit, so these next 18 days will be difficult but I am going to make it through it. I have a great support system this time around. My brother (Jackson) and my sister (Shelby) have been going with me to keep me motivated to keep going. I know they will be there with me through the sweat and tears. This is the time, I have to do this for me! 

Tonight Jackson and I went for a run, he went further mister cross country star himself, but I did it. It wasn't much but it was something. I walked parts of it, but I never stopped moving, which is better than what I could say I was doing a week ago. 

Even though I have Shelby and Jackson cheering me on, I could still use your great words of encouragement! Please comment and let me know if there are any ideas you have of things I could do. :) Or if you just want to go and workout together! 

Fix This.

Last week I went to the doctor to have some blood work done.. more get my cholesterol checked since I have high cholesterol on both sides of my family, so I thought it would be a good idea to get it checked out. Yesterday I called the doctor asking about the results since I haven't gotten a letter with my results. She told me some what I find to be scary news. 

My LDL's or my "bad" cholesterol is high. My HDL's or my "good" cholesterol is low. And my triglycerides which have to do with if you have diabetes or not, is high. 

She told me to eat less red meats, which I don't think I eat red meats all that often. Excerise more, basically telling me that I need to lose weight. And eat less "sweet" things and more fruits and veggies. 

I know it is something easy to fix, but just the thought at the age of 21 and already having these issues. She did say that my overall cholesterol was good. It was 191 and it needs to be below 200. I feel like that is getting close to trouble.

So I have to fix what is happening to myself. I am so afraid. I hope that I will be able to fix this. 

Run number TWO!

So I have not ran since Wednesday, because after that day I felt as though my legs were going to fall off! I did bring Ollie for his daily walks though! So I was still moving, but I wasn't quite ready for another run. 

BUT today was the day, or the night? I am home for the weekend, for Father's Day of course. I was sitting here and I was looking at Jackson, my brother for those who do not know who he is, who is in cross country. I said, "Hey, wanna go for a run tomorrow?" He was like okay lets go. Then me being the indecisive person I am. I decided that I should just go tonight! So we get all of our stuff on, and began our adventure. 

I kept up with him for a half mile. Which is how far I ran. Which I ran it in 5:10! That is almost a minute and a half faster than last time!

Which I am very excited about! But he continued on his own path while I walked back home. He actually went the "long way" and caught me! 

So tomorrow when I get back to Winona, since I have lovely classes next week still but my long four weeks of nine credits will be OVER, I will be going for a walk/jog! 

First Real Day

So I know I said I was going to seriously start this transformation in April, but I had a mental set back. As I posted last time I was scared and wasn't sure if I was really set up for this, if I could really do it. I just want it to be easy, but I know that isn't how this works. You have to work and try for it to work, but once you start noticing differences you will want to keep going. That what I find so difficult about this, I can work and I do not see any difference from the previous week. Which just makes things difficult. But I am ready and I am going to truly do it this time!

So as some of you know, I recently got a dog, named Ollie. Which I bring for a walk almost every morning before I go off to class. Even though I was bringing him on walks which is good for me as well I wanted to start running, since it is a good cardio workout and helps melt fat away.

So the other night I was looking online to see the benefits of running and the best way to start. Well I found a site of a 5K that I would really love to do! It's called The Color Run! It is coming to St. Paul July 15th I do not think I will be fully ready to run a 5K at that point. So I am hoping that they will comeback next year so I can take part in it then! Here is the site if anyone wants to look at it! http://thecolorrun.com/minnesota/

So I decided that I was going to start "training" for a 5K specifically The Color Run! So I started running today! I woke up with Mr. Ollie Bear and got my workout clothes on and put his leash on him, and went for a run! I ran .52 miles today, which when I think about it isn't that far, but it is .52 miles further than I was running yesterday! 

Tomorrow is another day, and I am planning on running the same route until I am not tired at the end of it. Today was not too tiring but I was not running very quickly it was just an easy jog. Which part of it had to do with having Ollie with me, but I was still tired at the end of the run today! So tomorrow goal is to do it in a little bit of a quicker time! 

Scared.

Here I sit, thinking I want to do this I want to transform into living a healthier lifestyle. But losing 40 pounds seems like so much to do. Like it will take forever, and I will never reach it and it will be too difficult, and I will slip and just go back into the ways that I have been going. I just don't want to fail on this journey, and I am so afraid that I will. 

Decision Day

Today is the day that I have decided I am going to make a change in my life for the better. I am going to exercise and live a healthier lifestyle. When I look in the mirror I am not happy with what I see. I am going to start this amazing transformation slowly, I don't want to put my body in complete shock! I bought a bike the other day so I have been riding around on that. I am planning on biking at least the small lake that is in Winona everyday which is about 2 miles for the first few weeks and slowly add more on. I want to be able to bike the large and small lake by the middle of May, which is about 6 miles.

Starting May 7th, 2012 I will be on a fruit and veggie diet for two weeks. Which will be difficult since I am not a huge veggie fan. SO I will be either turning into some cauliflower or turning orange from eating so many carrots! This will help flush out my body of all of the "bad" things.

I have always heard one of the biggest steps is telling people because then it hold you liable for actually having to do it!

I am not giving up, not this time, I am going to lose fat and never find it again. My goal is to lose 40-50 pounds of fat. If it turns into muscle thats great, but I need to lose the fat. I want to be able to walk around in a swimsuit and not be self conscious about it.

I hope that everyone will follow this and make sure to keep be liable on doing this, because support is always great and helps anyone get through anything difficult!

This is my goal! I want to look like this again! It can be accomplished, because I was there once! All I need is determination :)