Two weeks.

Today is the day I have been working out for two weeks! I have had some barriers the last week since I pulled a muscle, so I have been resting a lot this past week. But I am happy to say I am down 5 pounds. It doesn't seem like much, but its a start! 203 to 198. Call me crazy, but it feels like a big accomplishment because I am no longer in the 200's, even if it was only 3 pounds. :)

Back in November, I found out I had high cholesterol. My goal is to go back to the doctor, within a month and find out that my numbers are "normal" or at least closer to normal than they were before. I have been watching what I am eating, as far as how much of something I am eating. It is all about portion control. 

My goal is to be 150 pounds. I know some days will be more difficult than others, but I will get through it! I am not even necessarily looking for the number to be right, I just want to feel good about myself and the way I look. I want to be able to go to the beach and not be self conscious of how I look in a bikini. 

Thank you everyone for your support you have given me! It helps give me that extra drive to keep going! 

203.

June 9th ,2013 I looked in the mirror one last time before I headed to bed. I have never felt so horrible about myself. Then and there I decided for real the next day was going to be the last day I just sit there and let myself not care about how I look. 

June 10th, 2013 I wake up get my stuff on to go to the gym and go, before I go I took a before picture and weighed myself before I did anything that morning. I have topped my highest weight I have ever been at 203.4 pounds. I always told myself I would never weigh over 200 pounds, yet here I am today 203 pounds. 

I have started to change things in my life, for me to make myself happy. I have learned that I wasn't happy with myself. So this is me trying to make myself happy. 

I have worked out 3 of the 4 days since June 10th. I am planning on continuing on this journey. It takes 21 days to make something habit, so these next 18 days will be difficult but I am going to make it through it. I have a great support system this time around. My brother (Jackson) and my sister (Shelby) have been going with me to keep me motivated to keep going. I know they will be there with me through the sweat and tears. This is the time, I have to do this for me! 

Tonight Jackson and I went for a run, he went further mister cross country star himself, but I did it. It wasn't much but it was something. I walked parts of it, but I never stopped moving, which is better than what I could say I was doing a week ago. 

Even though I have Shelby and Jackson cheering me on, I could still use your great words of encouragement! Please comment and let me know if there are any ideas you have of things I could do. :) Or if you just want to go and workout together!